Distances ,I Quit !

I am here, you're there

we are far apart.

I struggle to keep this relationship, regardless of what I'm put through.

You dont bother, even calling ...

I call, I message, I PING yet...no replys

a day passes...

another day passes....

I become insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity

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a month passes....waiting. 

One day, i contact you, from another number,

" I got your work done, just get here as soon as you can." I sound the same, happy .

' yeah, thanks so much. ' you sound the same, not bothered.

and one fine day - 

we meet.

we live. we laugh. we love.

and....

one fine day, I Quit. 

I quit because I'm tired. 

Because - I failed to love you , I failed to put you and I together.

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and another starry night, in our 1 BHK apartment - I bid goodbye , forever I QUIT !

“I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. You alone have brought me to Bath. For you alone, I think and plan. Have you not seen this? Can you fail to have understood my wishes? I had not waited even these ten days, could I have read your feelings, as I think you must have penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant hearing something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, but I can distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be lost on others. Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice, indeed. You do believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. Believe it to be most fervent, most undeviating, in F. W.

I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither, or follow your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look, will be enough to decide whether I enter your father's house this evening or never.”
― Jane Austen, Persuasion 

it wasn't because i didn't love you, it wasn't because i couldn't love you....it was because despite all I could've ever done - I Failed to love you, to be your girlfriend and therefore i struggled to breathe and now .....I wont trouble you any longer.

Dasvidaniyan !