A star less night in the proximity of malad railway station in mumbai . Faint sounds of rail could be heard from the of malhotra residence behind mallory towers . Purvi,her brother Shashi and his girl friend naina sat down partying all night after a marathon of troubles. But before it was 2.33 am , a silent sand storm of emotions took away...
Purvi : so u were hiding this from me all this while ?
Shashi : oh well, I thought it was better to surprise u know.
Naina ,deep asleep ....snoring to slumber.
Purvi : look I don't like her, she's to western and moreover she's not fit for u. U choose now!
Shashi : u mean , I choose u or her?
Purvi : yes ! And ur under my oath if u ever talk to her again or establish any contact .
Shashi : *silent nod*
So its next morning, naina's surprise day .
She gently removes the "s" she wore and places it next to
The lotion bottle over the table ; and leaves.
End of the story,boring I know yet ...
Possessions are ur sole ownership, love is ur footloose dirt and women are a man's curse !
Monday, 21 May 2012
silent tears
Here I am, hours before the toughest exam in history of all exams, about 3 papers , 6 hours and 60 pages to write.
In a weary state, scratch marks and a lot of other pain. Such a piglet I can be, annoying and noisy. Like those who call for attention. Those who are plain stupid.
Maybe I am but,
My entire body aches into shreds. I've feelings I have to scream about,love I want to share, summer I want to remember, pain I want to get rid off, respect I want to attain,tears I want to forget and endless smile I want to achieve.
Where do I go?
When my own flesh is not my own.
Freedom is bliss, it diverts pain.mine is existent in my tears and ache.
Karma has bid for it's power.
In a weary state, scratch marks and a lot of other pain. Such a piglet I can be, annoying and noisy. Like those who call for attention. Those who are plain stupid.
Maybe I am but,
My entire body aches into shreds. I've feelings I have to scream about,love I want to share, summer I want to remember, pain I want to get rid off, respect I want to attain,tears I want to forget and endless smile I want to achieve.
Where do I go?
When my own flesh is not my own.
Freedom is bliss, it diverts pain.mine is existent in my tears and ache.
Karma has bid for it's power.
Sunday, 20 May 2012
Broken Promises
When strom strikes, it comes with all its might; and washes away pebble to pebble in the tiniest form it could. As I sit today, I'm not sure if I'm heart broken but I'm in a strange state , maybe it's a kind of numbing silence thant I can't yet comprehend. I sometimes wonder, no matter what I do for us but it wont make any difference because no matter how much I drain out into this love life of our's ...you've just not bothered to ever turn back and look deep down into my eyes and know it takes more than a night to adhere to such a thing. Now, I think i'll let u be out in the wild, because if I don't deserve you...then what's the point of such life. Forgive me please !
I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.
Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you
PS : it's not that I dont love you, I'm incomplete without you. it's just that I can't love back when I lurk into silent darkness of ur's :|
“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
― Bob Marley
I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.
Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you
PS : it's not that I dont love you, I'm incomplete without you. it's just that I can't love back when I lurk into silent darkness of ur's :|
“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
― Bob Marley
Tuesday, 15 May 2012
Solvent
In business terms, solvent is something that can dissolve completely and no leave any debts; something like that.
Off an exam morning with body ache and nausea from an overload of coffee makes me all cranky.
And there's a lot to be happy about u know, like math is gone from my mathly sadistic life.
Needless to say from this nausea-tic morning,I've cold feet for a paper in just an hour an I'm not even done revision-ing once *screams*
And here I get all tauntly messages for blogging and moving to serendipity ....and all that!
So,I think I'm bored of this writing business, or maybe I make it less interesting since they reflect a lot of personal thoughts u see.
For a while,I'll be off network, maybe to settle into a new pungent lifestyle or how they call it - get a life !
Au revoir !!!
:|
Off an exam morning with body ache and nausea from an overload of coffee makes me all cranky.
And there's a lot to be happy about u know, like math is gone from my mathly sadistic life.
Needless to say from this nausea-tic morning,I've cold feet for a paper in just an hour an I'm not even done revision-ing once *screams*
And here I get all tauntly messages for blogging and moving to serendipity ....and all that!
So,I think I'm bored of this writing business, or maybe I make it less interesting since they reflect a lot of personal thoughts u see.
For a while,I'll be off network, maybe to settle into a new pungent lifestyle or how they call it - get a life !
Au revoir !!!
:|
Sunday, 13 May 2012
Satyanass iss IPL ka
It's high time exams are on and 3 papers a day ...it's driving me crazy. Any random person I call, message or even say i need 2 minutes of ur time, will have to say - I'm busy . The sole reason for them being busy is - IPL and it's 2 nonsense daily matches. What's with this IPL, did the whole bunch of idiots bet on this stupidity ...?
It makes me miss my daily soaps, movies ...etc.
Styanass ho iss IPL ka...Bakhwas hi laga rakhi hai TV pe. Jisse dekho chipka rehta hai . Uggh :P
It makes me miss my daily soaps, movies ...etc.
Styanass ho iss IPL ka...Bakhwas hi laga rakhi hai TV pe. Jisse dekho chipka rehta hai . Uggh :P
Friday, 11 May 2012
Neither Day, Nor Night
Here I sit, a night before my next regular board exam....with some sort of a happy feeling that I caught up my sleep before another slack paper.
Then I discover myself talking bullshit over chat. My mind starts ticking like a bomb clock about to expolde .
But later, I find myself in the same miserable state, where I decide not to write anymore. I've been successful so far on giving up upon coke, lays, movies, artificial jewellry and offcourse - Faking it. I did this for one person, for he said so ..maybe I'm not supposed to be so obidient but I suddenly became so.
Sometimes reality isn't all that beautiful. Here I sit, trying to prove my sanity, to come out of a shocked state of confusion , to listen to my heartache and probably trying to agree that it's what the truth was .
Beauty vanishes in a matter of seconds, promises break away in a matter of miliseconds so why do I sit to believe them to be true - after all I wasn't his first nor was I his last . He could change his mind, because I needed him and he didn't .
Everything had changed in a few hours, my only dream came to an end. Someone had rights to raise a question on my character. Some had the guts to say - what right do u have to be happy ?
And now I wonder , if I did deserve to be happy. If that person was right. Because, after all this while of extermist behaviour - anyone could term me insane. Then what crime did he do by saying so ?
Sometimes I thought everthing was changing for good and a while later I realize that I'm not god's chosen angel for miracles. I'm just some girl who thinks smart of herself but in reality she's just some girl.
Sometimes I try to hide my bruises, my changing self but somebody catches it and talks about it - It's crappy I tell u .
And after so much of thinking I cry for a while till my eyes burn . Sometimes I miss those days when mom and I were mother and daughter, when dad and I talked about NDTV Profit...when I planned my vacation with my sister. All that's faded away and I stand here alone, frightened to know what next did I have in store for me. After all , i can't get away from karma for ruining a " guy's" life .
Me ME Me...so much of 'ME'
I can't say I was tired ...and I wanted to leave. But, everything is changing too quick !!
Karma had bid for its power.
Then I discover myself talking bullshit over chat. My mind starts ticking like a bomb clock about to expolde .
But later, I find myself in the same miserable state, where I decide not to write anymore. I've been successful so far on giving up upon coke, lays, movies, artificial jewellry and offcourse - Faking it. I did this for one person, for he said so ..maybe I'm not supposed to be so obidient but I suddenly became so.
Sometimes reality isn't all that beautiful. Here I sit, trying to prove my sanity, to come out of a shocked state of confusion , to listen to my heartache and probably trying to agree that it's what the truth was .
Beauty vanishes in a matter of seconds, promises break away in a matter of miliseconds so why do I sit to believe them to be true - after all I wasn't his first nor was I his last . He could change his mind, because I needed him and he didn't .
Everything had changed in a few hours, my only dream came to an end. Someone had rights to raise a question on my character. Some had the guts to say - what right do u have to be happy ?
And now I wonder , if I did deserve to be happy. If that person was right. Because, after all this while of extermist behaviour - anyone could term me insane. Then what crime did he do by saying so ?
Sometimes I thought everthing was changing for good and a while later I realize that I'm not god's chosen angel for miracles. I'm just some girl who thinks smart of herself but in reality she's just some girl.
Sometimes I try to hide my bruises, my changing self but somebody catches it and talks about it - It's crappy I tell u .
And after so much of thinking I cry for a while till my eyes burn . Sometimes I miss those days when mom and I were mother and daughter, when dad and I talked about NDTV Profit...when I planned my vacation with my sister. All that's faded away and I stand here alone, frightened to know what next did I have in store for me. After all , i can't get away from karma for ruining a " guy's" life .
Me ME Me...so much of 'ME'
I can't say I was tired ...and I wanted to leave. But, everything is changing too quick !!
Karma had bid for its power.
“Anyone whose goal is 'something higher' must expect someday to suffer vertigo. What is vertigo? Fear of falling? No, Vertigo is something other than fear of falling. It is the voice of the emptiness below us which tempts and lures us, it is the desire to fall, against which, terrified, we defend ourselves.”
― Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being
― Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being
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