It's a random night once more, I'm bored . I've lost hope of doing anything again. I sit. I think. I sleep. I shed countless tears.
They say, pain subsides slowly into a kind of numbing, and now I can feel that process of numbing really is painful enough to put any of it to nothing but numbness.
I feel that part when they say daughters aren't your own, I feel the plunging gap . It hurts. it hurts a lot.
i feel torn away from my own self. Does anyone bother listening to me here?
They say I'm at fault and I defend to say I'm not . But even I don't know what is right .
They say, isolate and work hard...believe in ur destiny ; the rightful will stick to u but does such happen in real life? I guess not.
Sometimes, I wonder...why am I a woman ?? Why do I need to prove my chastity ? Why should I go through so much pain and still be proud?
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Oh dear, now I can barely lift my own pot of thoughts !
I thought of remembering my mother as a person who would comfort me, my father will be the wall of that comforting castle and my best friend , my sibbling . But apparently I was so wrong .
I just realized, I'm heart broken once again .
it's true I go berserk when I miss him, I can't spell a word right. But is it a shameful thing to be?
It's even true, that ur ego is the greatest thing to hold but mine breaks into even tinier peices as a day passes . Sometimes I ask myself, why me?
Someone find me a painkiller !!
They say, pain subsides slowly into a kind of numbing, and now I can feel that process of numbing really is painful enough to put any of it to nothing but numbness.
I feel that part when they say daughters aren't your own, I feel the plunging gap . It hurts. it hurts a lot.
i feel torn away from my own self. Does anyone bother listening to me here?
They say I'm at fault and I defend to say I'm not . But even I don't know what is right .
They say, isolate and work hard...believe in ur destiny ; the rightful will stick to u but does such happen in real life? I guess not.
Sometimes, I wonder...why am I a woman ?? Why do I need to prove my chastity ? Why should I go through so much pain and still be proud?
>
>
>
Oh dear, now I can barely lift my own pot of thoughts !
I thought of remembering my mother as a person who would comfort me, my father will be the wall of that comforting castle and my best friend , my sibbling . But apparently I was so wrong .
I just realized, I'm heart broken once again .
it's true I go berserk when I miss him, I can't spell a word right. But is it a shameful thing to be?
It's even true, that ur ego is the greatest thing to hold but mine breaks into even tinier peices as a day passes . Sometimes I ask myself, why me?
Someone find me a painkiller !!
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