Innocence

Yeah it's weird to hear that from me but the fact is the some facts are unknown; sometimes they are unknown to me as well. There's always something I have to tell but the ears fall short. Maybe, this blog which is unknown to many is the best place where I write and nobody listens or reads it yet it gives me some sort of satisfaction that somebody might just read it someday even if that someday never shall come and that I know from deep inside or maybe not !? *sigh*

Myth & Facts

#1 Myth : She's arrogant !
Fact : she's not , never was. Just a woman filled with so much annoyance that it's hard to tell when she isn't annoyed.

#2 Myth : She's an easy catch
Fact : maybe she is , doesnt mean you should be mean. But more closly she's not , she knows things but doesn't always talk , she's loving .

#3 Myth : 'dude , i was being sarcastic! u took it seriously ? oh pity you' *your thought*
Fact : ' I know you were being sarcastic and I guessed it the time this sarcasm started yet didn't believe you were that mean' * my thought*

The problem doesn't lie in you , it lies in me. It's where i'm too honest and too loving . I happen to be harmless and never get cynical . It's where the problem lies. It's the innocence that one woman can posses is the problem in this era because we've really lost people who are that innocent and that forgiving. We live in a place where everybody is a devil and everything is evil , where would be a place for that innocence i scream about.
To disambiguate b/w my thinking and yours is ; yours is too narrow and shrewd and mine is too honest and harmless.
My hope begins to flail at times, for people who take that honesty and care for granted and think it's fake.
I stand gapeing at times to what i hear about myself, trust me . it's a situation where i sink into the thought " this person knows how to judge people ? OMG ! like really? Noway! "
while all you out there , like hounds come into my life get some rest , take advantage and walk away .
When you're incomplete, you're always searching for somebody to complete uself. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, u find that you're still unfulfilled, u blame ur partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on--series polygamy--until u admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, I ,u, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for u, and to believe otherwise is to delude urselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship you will enter.
To move on, u'll use a person like that give her that: a private space to believe in the illusion of normalcy in a relation and then suddenly, disappear in the dark.
For all the wrong users of innocence , i can scream and shout till my voice reaches the edges of the earth i.e. that ur incompetent humans and do not deserve to live in a socity or even know people who can selflessly love you & deserve no forgiveness for anything . I say this in tears , lods of them .
even though u'll continue to use such people like a pawn yet I say : for the sake of humanity, just once stop and think about that woman or man ...do they really deserve that kind of treatment or do they deserve ur respect and love ? is it that tough to give something u recieve in abundance ? how tough is it? I could never struggle for such a thing!