It's been so long I wrote,it's my saturnine self who stays in a sulky mood until I really find some other situation to sulk about...
The prom day and night is supposed to be the busiest day . It should start off with manicures, pedicures and a salon day filled with facial et lots of glitz . But my prom day was the most boring and horrific. I had a bad morning with tons of scolding and a super stressful day with no facial or sleek eyebrows . My make up took hours and I missed red carpet because my parents thought they were invited too.
Later that night, my feet were on fire with 8 inch stilettos and that too pencil pencil heals...how sleek can they get!!
Everyone had a partner and I went alone, it's a bit depressing. Apparently, I gained weight and I couldn't afford to get another dress or lose any flab ...so I went in with a tummy tucker ( and it's nothing to be ashamed about) .
By the end, I reaslised how lonely I was, having nobody to even walk me to the dance floor...do I how to even smile anymore?
I suck at everything, at relationships , at writing, at making tea , at just being me ...
I 've never loved school, I was always bullied. I was always the stupid one trying for some attention but that's not the truth, I hoped for a normal life and I guess that's the only mistake I made.
After it's all coming to an end, i'll miss school. It's an emotional disaster. It doesn't feel it's over. I'm not sure if I should be happy or sad, but i sure know that I'm probably losing my mind . Super bored .
The prom day and night is supposed to be the busiest day . It should start off with manicures, pedicures and a salon day filled with facial et lots of glitz . But my prom day was the most boring and horrific. I had a bad morning with tons of scolding and a super stressful day with no facial or sleek eyebrows . My make up took hours and I missed red carpet because my parents thought they were invited too.
Later that night, my feet were on fire with 8 inch stilettos and that too pencil pencil heals...how sleek can they get!!
Everyone had a partner and I went alone, it's a bit depressing. Apparently, I gained weight and I couldn't afford to get another dress or lose any flab ...so I went in with a tummy tucker ( and it's nothing to be ashamed about) .
By the end, I reaslised how lonely I was, having nobody to even walk me to the dance floor...do I how to even smile anymore?
I suck at everything, at relationships , at writing, at making tea , at just being me ...
I 've never loved school, I was always bullied. I was always the stupid one trying for some attention but that's not the truth, I hoped for a normal life and I guess that's the only mistake I made.
After it's all coming to an end, i'll miss school. It's an emotional disaster. It doesn't feel it's over. I'm not sure if I should be happy or sad, but i sure know that I'm probably losing my mind . Super bored .
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