The 109th bead

sometimes when I sit and wonder about a situation it gives me a double response. On one hand it says, everything is going to positive and ugly and on the other end it says it's still going to be negative and disheartening.Sometimes it's easier to forgive and let go than holding it and fighting to prove yourself right. Sometimes u have ample random evidence and sometimes u have nothing, sometimes jokes become serious stories and serious stories become a matter of disbelief. Sometimes, there's a hell lot of confusion, between love and being a broken heart, between punishment  and forgiveness , between love and resentment , between everything...To all those who believe that there's nothing huge about breaking someone's trust or such; must know that shattering someone's trust in u is the worst thing u will ever do to that person. Always remember, when someone trusts u with their heart and mind , they believe that u will not betray them and keep up as promised . When trust is broken, u may never know he/she will never be able to trust anything again. We all, regardless of who we become and what we do must never betray those who love us, provide us with support when everyone's backed out because they believed in u when nobody did and that does require courage .
I remember fasting and crazily praying when he did have problems to deal with, exams to pass ...when nothing made him believe that it was all going to be fine - I did believe that no matter how or what, god always answers my prayers and he will do it for him too.
This time, I just want to pray one more time for that 'kutta' in the hope that success, happiness and faith bestow him ; like it or not I hope - everything is fine , that nothing makes him believe that it was always going to be a fuck up.
I know I hold no right to say this or pray so..but I know one thing for sure - Karma always bids for it's power .