When I see my bare shoulders, I see that they are bent under some sort of responsibility, the responsibility of beauty. There's a famous saying by my mother - beauty attracts beasts; for it's intensity leaves helplessness into the man's mind . I look into my eyes again, today they are khol-less and smeared with an empty glare , I'm horrified at that one sight of void filling into me ; for what reason - even I find it hard to believe . I consign anything that makes me insecure but now when I look into my desire-less eyes , I see the reason why I live . The reason may sound horrifying in this 21st century where every woman dreams of her freedom and identity and I possess tthe tradionalist attitude mixing it ghastly with modern ideas . Some times I wonder, what I'm doing is it even worth believing it ? Am I walking the wrong path again ?
To be honest, I'm just a fugitive from my own self . It's desire to hold me had almost broken me, I dare not pick up the pieces again that I vividly scattered in the vast extense of nothingness . There's mutiny within my heart and mind , of freedom from breath .
Now I know why this battlion has taken rage, because there's a lot of love and kindness; lot of love for him; lot of weakness for something I can do nothing about .
I'm that beautiful rose whose throns have been plucked out mindlessly only to make her realize that sometimes u , yourself can be fatal for you.
Is it so wrong to love one person and maintain chastity ? Is it a crime to ask for something in all honesty ?
Why is it so difficult remain beautiful and clean at the same time ? why does every man think he can fairly attack ur chastity to his mind's wish ?
I love him, my soulmate, my best friend, my possible husband ...I'm not going to get it tattooed but that's it - no other man shall ever come .
Maybe I sound like a child here, but it's my rude statement to all the turned on bastards out there ; the only man who will be my soulmate is chosen, find urselves another woman who is interested in one night stands, for I'm not of that taste.
Whosoever may come, my family and him are the most important people for me, the highest priority is then given to my work and later the other nonsense can come along .
Thank you !
To be honest, I'm just a fugitive from my own self . It's desire to hold me had almost broken me, I dare not pick up the pieces again that I vividly scattered in the vast extense of nothingness . There's mutiny within my heart and mind , of freedom from breath .
Now I know why this battlion has taken rage, because there's a lot of love and kindness; lot of love for him; lot of weakness for something I can do nothing about .
I'm that beautiful rose whose throns have been plucked out mindlessly only to make her realize that sometimes u , yourself can be fatal for you.
Is it so wrong to love one person and maintain chastity ? Is it a crime to ask for something in all honesty ?
Why is it so difficult remain beautiful and clean at the same time ? why does every man think he can fairly attack ur chastity to his mind's wish ?
I love him, my soulmate, my best friend, my possible husband ...I'm not going to get it tattooed but that's it - no other man shall ever come .
Maybe I sound like a child here, but it's my rude statement to all the turned on bastards out there ; the only man who will be my soulmate is chosen, find urselves another woman who is interested in one night stands, for I'm not of that taste.
Whosoever may come, my family and him are the most important people for me, the highest priority is then given to my work and later the other nonsense can come along .
Thank you !
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