Via ad Nusquam, meaning 'road to nowhere' in latin. My new found love for latin is incresingly crazy by the day, why was I beginning to like latin or should I rather say, why was I discovering an entirely new side of myself ?
What was happening to me? I had a new hair style, a new tone , a rather unhealthy routine yet striving to workout even if it was 12 midnight ...
everything changed in a matter of hours, I moved from 'love' to the old self of mine. I was cheeky again, I was random once more and I prayed like a baby before stars once more. Why did I fall for an 'indian' guy? who has nothing but his ego or shall I quote ' uneven' innocence and attitude to throw ? why did I love him for he was like a far away bank of river, who could walk along if dragged, but never meet. Or was he like other men? cheap and disgusting? Sick to his head? Or was I just annoyed and paranoid?
I just dont know why did I , in the first place fall for him? What was it? He's not rich, he's not prince charming, he's not even charming. He's somehow a mere mess at times, so what was it? Why did I pray night and day for him to return back? where did he disappear into thin air?
Ibi est vetus Latine iocum, semel a ambulavit vir ad deum et dixit - 'amabo amabo placet me vincere in sortitio hodie.' Dies ille saepius. Unum die sttue ad vitam et dixit - meus filius, placere amabo placere buy tessera '
Above is an old latin joke, where a man goes before the statue of Jesus Christ everyday and asks him to let the man win the lottery today. He makes sure he does that daily, till one day when the statue comes to life and says - please please please get a ticket .
This is how some stuff works, you have to leave behind , forgive and learn to live without those who mattered the most. Those who will matter the most is MAMA and PAPA. They, despite what come may make sure that their tiny little baby , who couldn't walk , eat or even think once upon a time , is dependent enough to depend on nobody . Then why did I forget that mother who loved me from the day I was concieved till the day I'll die, How could I forget that father, who brought 6 pairs of the same shoe in diffrent colors, who never let a tear fall ..how could I forget that elder sister, who put me to sleep or that brother who , despite my nonsense hugged me...and said - ur my favourite fatty !
How did I forget tayaji who stayed awake all night so mum could sleep , or taiji who made glass candy , just for me?
Or my Best Friend, My sister..my baby sister who never let alone. Who supported me even if I was wrong..why did I ?
Why did I forget that family for and 'indian' who couldn't even walk by my side and I gave him the world.
Did he deserve this?
Did I deserve this catastrophe?
The storm had ended, and now it was plain flat land for another beginning.
Yet, why on earth...did this happen? where there was a road to nowhere...to nothingness or greater love and faith awaited ?
Was he coming back?
Mundi, etiam u retinebimus; et lapsus
What was happening to me? I had a new hair style, a new tone , a rather unhealthy routine yet striving to workout even if it was 12 midnight ...
everything changed in a matter of hours, I moved from 'love' to the old self of mine. I was cheeky again, I was random once more and I prayed like a baby before stars once more. Why did I fall for an 'indian' guy? who has nothing but his ego or shall I quote ' uneven' innocence and attitude to throw ? why did I love him for he was like a far away bank of river, who could walk along if dragged, but never meet. Or was he like other men? cheap and disgusting? Sick to his head? Or was I just annoyed and paranoid?
I just dont know why did I , in the first place fall for him? What was it? He's not rich, he's not prince charming, he's not even charming. He's somehow a mere mess at times, so what was it? Why did I pray night and day for him to return back? where did he disappear into thin air?
Ibi est vetus Latine iocum, semel a ambulavit vir ad deum et dixit - 'amabo amabo placet me vincere in sortitio hodie.' Dies ille saepius. Unum die sttue ad vitam et dixit - meus filius, placere amabo placere buy tessera '
Above is an old latin joke, where a man goes before the statue of Jesus Christ everyday and asks him to let the man win the lottery today. He makes sure he does that daily, till one day when the statue comes to life and says - please please please get a ticket .
This is how some stuff works, you have to leave behind , forgive and learn to live without those who mattered the most. Those who will matter the most is MAMA and PAPA. They, despite what come may make sure that their tiny little baby , who couldn't walk , eat or even think once upon a time , is dependent enough to depend on nobody . Then why did I forget that mother who loved me from the day I was concieved till the day I'll die, How could I forget that father, who brought 6 pairs of the same shoe in diffrent colors, who never let a tear fall ..how could I forget that elder sister, who put me to sleep or that brother who , despite my nonsense hugged me...and said - ur my favourite fatty !
How did I forget tayaji who stayed awake all night so mum could sleep , or taiji who made glass candy , just for me?
Or my Best Friend, My sister..my baby sister who never let alone. Who supported me even if I was wrong..why did I ?
Why did I forget that family for and 'indian' who couldn't even walk by my side and I gave him the world.
Did he deserve this?
Did I deserve this catastrophe?
The storm had ended, and now it was plain flat land for another beginning.
Yet, why on earth...did this happen? where there was a road to nowhere...to nothingness or greater love and faith awaited ?
Was he coming back?
Mundi, etiam u retinebimus; et lapsus
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